I tend to be uneasy person, I’m not going to deny it. Once things are at a comfortable spot, thats it. No altering the situation, I’m fine where I am. Once things get a little bit out of that comfort spot, I start to get anxious.
I have never been one for change. I dont’ see the point of allowing things to be different when I’m happy they way things are already.
I’ve always dreaded the beginning of the school year. Not for the obvious ‘I heart summer’ sort of thing, but for the changes.
I liked last years teachers, my classes with all my friends, and my well organized schedule of who I saw when, in between what classes, and for how long.
But, with the start of a new school year all of that changes. Who knows if i would be able to stand my teachers, or if my classes would be tolerable. I had no idea if I would have plenty of friends in my class, or if I would be all alone in the corner.
When the topic of college comes up, I can’t take it. The thought of leaving the comfortable Midland bubble for an unfamiliar college campus makes me sweat. How will I get by without my parents always being there to have my back? Is there any way I’ll stay in touch with my friends?
I don’t want to enter the real world. I want to stay in my sheltered world, where everything can be comfortably familiar.
If it was up to me, I would stay in Midland forever, and never worry about the scary changes that come with adulthood.
Of course, speaking of changes brings up the subject of new experiences. Sometimes I shy away from trying something new just because it could be hard or scary, or even just a little unfamiliar.
I assume that I could just be a crazy, overly nervous person. But I’m curious to find out if i’m not the only one who feels this way about new experiences at least slightly.
So you tell me. Are new experiences something to enjoy and take part in as much as possible, or something to avoid at the chance of change?
—Ruth Leibfritz
August 9, 2007 at 1:36 am
I think everyone, whether they admit it or not, is afraid on some level of new experiences and change. It’s natural to want to be comfortable. And doing what we know makes us comfortable.
But it’s important to find the balance between comfort and stagnation. If you let yourself become too comfortable, you’ll never try new things and never grow as a human being.
I guess my response is, I like change less and less the older I get. But I also recognize I have to “take it to the edge” (sorry, had to work that in there) so I don’t mentally die at 40.